Canada x Reader: I'm Still Here (songfic)

~I am a question to the world,
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment that's held in your arms.
And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway…
You don't know me,
And I’ll never be what you want me to be.~


Matthew frowned as he silently sat in the world conference. He looked over at several countries who paid him no attention. His only friend was (y/n), or the country of (c/n).

Matthew was Canada, the second largest country for goodness sake! He felt so frustrated that no one knew who he was.


~And what do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no, I'm a man..
You can't take me and throw me away.
And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on your own.
They don't know me 'cause I'm not here.~


Matthew silently stood and left, not that anyone noticed. Well, (y/n) noticed because she stood and followed Matthew.


“(y/n), where are you going? The meeting’s not over yet” England asked


“I’m going after Matthew” she answered


“Who?”


“Canada! You guys are jerks sometimes” she scoffed and rushed after her Canadian friend.


“Matthew, wait up!” she called as Matthew turned and gave her a surprised look.


“(y/n)…you came after me?” he asked


“Of course. You ok Mattie?” she asked and gave him a soft smile


“I just wish they’d notice me…” he spoke


“You don’t need them to….you got me” she laughed as he blushed lightly.


~And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change?
They’re the ones that stay the same.
They don’t know me,
'Cause I’m not here.~


“Let’s go on a picnic” (y/n) suggested as he nodded and they both left the building. (y/n0 drove Matthew’s car to her place and packed their lunch.


“Let’s go to the park near my place” Matthew added as she nodded and the two left for the second destination


The two friends carried the basket to a nice grassy patch in the park. No one came to the park, it being away from the city and tucked away near the forests. Kumajiro bounded around in the grass as Matthew laid down the large blanket.


“I just got a couple texts from the others” (y/n) spoke as she glanced at her phone.


“Forget Canada and come back to the meeting- America
We’re going out to (f/r) for lunch, come join us- France
Tell Canada to come back and toughen up- England” she read the messages with sorrow hinting her voice. She turned and saw Matthew’s eyes glaze with water


“Oh Mattie, don’t cry!” She rushed over and hugged him. Matthew clutched onto her tightly and stiffened a sob.


“I just want to belong…” he choked out

“You do belong….” She whispered and held him gently


~And you see the things they never see
All you wanted, I could be
Now you know me, and I'm not afraid
And I wanna tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am~


“Mattie, look!” (y/n) whispered and pointed. Matthew slowly turned to see a caribou. It was a young male judging by his small, but decently long antlers. Matthew slowly approached it as he softly stroked it’s muzzle. (y/n) joined him and patted it’s neck and smiled


“This is so cool” (y/n) smiled as Matthew blushed. He felt lucky to share such a rare moment with (y/n). If she was happy, he was happy.


The caribou perked its head up when it heard something. They looked to see an antler-lee caribou a few feet away from them. The caribou gently nuzzled Matthew and trotted over to the other one.


“I guess that’s his mate” Matthew chuckled as the two caribou trotted off together.


“Let’s eat” (y/n) smiled and sat on the blanket beside Matthew as they began eating their lunch.


~They can’t tell me who to be,
‘Cause I’m not what they see.
Yeah, the world is still sleepin’,
While I keep on dreamin’ for me.
And their words are just whispers
And lies that I’ll never believe.~


Matthew and (y/n) laid on the blanket and pointed out shapes in the clouds. Kumajiro spent his time hunting down a passing butterfly.


“It’s starting to get dark” (y/n) frowned


“We can go home if you want” Matthew offered until she shook her head


“I’m fine, we can gaze at the stars” she smiled as Matthew blushed again.


“I see a shooting star, make a wish!” Matthew pointed as he closed his eyes and wished.


“What was your wish?” he asked


“If I tell you, it won’t come true, silly!” (y/n) laughed


“Hey Mattie?”


“Yes (y/n)?”


“No matter what the others say, don’t listen. You don’t need to be accepted by them” (y/n) smiled as he returned it and nodded


~I’m the one,
‘Cause I’m still here.
I’m still here.
I’m still here.
I’m still here.~


“Can I tell you a secret Mattie?” (y/n) asked as she sat up and looked at him


“Sure, I won’t tell anyone” He nodded


“I kinda like being the only one who notices you, because I love you” (y/n) leaned in and gently kissed him. Matthew was stiff for a few moments until he relaxed and kissed back. Matthew gently reach up and let his fingers weave through (y/n)’s soft (h/c) hair.


“I love you too” Matthew breathed as his eyes met (y/n)’s (e/c) ones. He could’ve sworn the moonlight made them glow brighter.


“My wish was that we’ll always be together” (y/n) whispered as Matthew pulled her close to him and held her in his arms.